I opened my mind to this new Human Design chart. It took me a while, though, to work through the initial shock. It felt like someone had pulled [...]
I opened my mind to this new Human Design chart. It took me a while, though, to work through the initial shock. It felt like someone had pulled the rug from under my feet. This was proof of how attached I was to being a Projector.
Again, very hard to describe, but something "clicked" within me. Although my mind struggled to make sense of it all, my body and soul seemed to feel recognition when contemplating the new chart.
Over time, I was able to put some perspective to it. My mind made peace with the possibility that this chart could be a true representation of my design. And at the same time, I also became very aware of my tendency to over-identify with it.
Again, Tosha Silver-like, I started using this mantra: "It's easy for me to receive." Because I knew my mind would always try to control my journey, keeping me from seeing the signs and the gifts life holds for me.
I openly discussed my findings and feelings in the Facebook group created by the person who was now coding a public and free calculator in True Sidereal for everyone to use. Through the responses I got on my post, I was gently nudged into a new direction.
It didn't take long to encounter a new shock to my system: discovering the original Human Design Revelation before Robert Alan Krakower (aka Ra Uru Hu) started adding all of these extra aspects, names, keynotes, and interpretations to the system.
I came upon Zeno Dickson's work, one of Ra's first students, and together with her husband, the facilitator of the first international Human Design teachings in the USA, commissioned by Ra himself.
Her story is absolutely heartbreaking.
Human Design became her passion early on. And as she and her husband created the initial Human Design manuals, instructed by Ra Uru Hu.
And as they started facilitating all these classes and teachings, she started seeing how Ra added more and more aspects to the system up to the point that it became impossible to read a Human Design chart without first memorizing vast amounts of information (names, keynotes, and descriptions).
She witnessed how Human Design became this modality that didn't work other than people reciting Ra's exact words without ever understanding what they were talking about. And she refused to go on like that.
She confronted Ra with her findings and told him his system didn't work. Of course, Ra wasn't pleased, and it led to an ugly break-up.
Soon after she left the community, she started showing immune deficiency. She eventually got diagnosed with Progressive Multiple Sclerosis, and later with Myasthenia Gravis. It went quickly downhill after that.
She started getting mobility and speech issues, eventually causing her to be bed-rid and unable to teach. She died in March 2020. She fought for her cause as long as she was able to, ridiculed by the traditional Human Design community.
I watched all her videos on YouTube and cried because of her passion for Human Design and her genuine concerns for people using this extensive system that is now known as Human Design according to Jovian and the International Human Design School (IHDS). They even added a business-related interpretation, called BG5.
Fortunately, she was able to strip Human Design back down to the original Revelation before she got too ill. She wrote a book, recorded her teachings, and called her work "Zen Human Design", referring to the contemplating and observing nature of the original Human Design before it came this huge and complex mental trip.
It made so much sense to me why Ra would use this simple and practical system to create a monster that led him to finally earn a lot of money.
Zeno shared through her story how impatient Ra became when he saw that his initial system wouldn't bring in the big bucks. And the moment people asked for more, he delivered, even if that meant that he would need to invent and make up some of the things he added.
Of course, sharing this with the world results in getting push-back from the traditional Human Design community. To them, Zeno was just a bitter, old Projector, too sick to be taken seriously. But I see something completely different. It wouldn't be the first time that one tries to destroy another's reputation if it doesn't fit the Human Design money machine.
It's so sad. And it's angering. And yet, it is also an opportunity to approach Human Design in the empowering and expansive way it deserves.
One thing is for sure: after watching, reading, and listening to hours of Ra's teachings, you won't get that empowering and expansive approach from him. Instead, you get this bleak picture about the future of humankind painted for you, combined with an impossible system to work through unless you want to limit yourself and get trapped in the many boxes it tends to put you in.
Human Design became very dogmatic which seems to be the opposite of what it was in the early days. It took me two years to finally see.
Although many Human Design practitioners left the traditional Jovian teachings, it is still based on this system Ra mostly created out of need instead of integrity.
Where is my proof, you could ask? Well, of course, you don't need to believe me.
If you can honestly say that Human Design, as it is in Ra's teachings or any teachings based on type, authority, profile, and many of the other aspects that probably spark your mind's curiosity, led you to deep transformational work, then that's great. That's awesome.
But in reality, that's not the case for most of the people who encounter Human Design.
And that's why I want to offer a different approach. An approach that will probably result in my being burned at the stake, but guess what: I no longer identify with being a Heretic, so... I don't really care, lol.
But if you somehow feel that some of the things I'm saying resonate with you, thank you, and I invite you to stay with me for a little while because I have so much more to share.
I honor the authority in you (this almost sounds like a "Namasté", right?) to know what is best for you. You are the expert on you, remember?